I must be slacking. 5 days since my last post. It would Jordan that would tip me over and make me want to post again though huh. After not seeing him for almost 3 weeks, I still really want to see him. I really want to hang out with him. Why am i think weak? I have no clue.
Nothing is as pretty as the past. I am holding to the most unhealthy obsession. I can't even let it go. I tried, but I am so weak. If I could, I would be drinking right now. God, I am listening to this song and it's the best description of me. How would the Arctic Monkeys know? That this is exactly the girl I have feared of becoming and have become. I am sad for me and the world today. Where did the old me go?
I am stuck at a crossroads of life. The guy I really liked has rejected me. All my exes are in serious relationships. My graduate project isn't going anywhere. I'm a gimp because of this stupid collar bone injury. I am damn near broke. I have no real friends here. My old friends have forgotten me. Everyone has moved on with their life and I am still stuck in the past. I am slowly falling into an abyss of depression. How far had we come from where we used to be Nat? And how did we get here?
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