Bright Lights

As I sit here at my desk at work (light) on a friday afternoon, continuing contemplating my life. Bright lights by Matchbox 20 is playing and although I do not relate to all of the song, there are definitely lyrics in it that speaks to me. I finally hung out with Jordan yesterday and I feel like a weight is lifted. We may only be friends, but i'm okay with that. I'm just going to need time to get over him. But somehow, I think it has been made easier. It's okay, I have faith in time. Bright Lights might be referring to the change of life once you move to the city and the deception of the big city, but what I am seeing is
There's some things in this world
You just can't change
Somethings you can't see
Until it gets too late

Some things you don't need
Until they leave you
And they're things that you miss 

Normal cliche lyrics of course, but they speak and reflect everything in my life. Now I know that my friendship with shayan is not that healthy and I should really spend last time with him. I have to make sure no residue attachment remains. The way to do that is to truly move forward and put my faith in dating. I have a date with Jeff tonight so let me just concentrate on that. Enjoy life and make love with everyone. I should feel accomplished actually. I made two discoveries today that might change my project drastically, and in a great way. Who knows what doors this could open for my project. And I have several potential guys now: Migi, Jeff B., Jeff, Andrey, Ron, Keaton, Brian, and Jake. I am okay.